Just another manic Monday!

What a whirlwind today was. My my my how I despise Mondays. BUT in other good news, I'm hoping these next two weeks fly by so it can finally be time for my moms visit to PDX!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I have a lot on the calendar for this week... and next week is our District meeting for work followed by a day of TM training. (Which will end up being a drunk fest  afterwards no doubt.. bonus!) I love the team I work with. Everyone is so much fun and supportive of each other. It's great! But also sad cuz we only get together every other month. :-( but none-the-less I'm excited for this week and next but mostly for my mom and Marty's arrival!!!

So let me give you a little recap of what's been going on in Portland

1. Jessica has finally grown up. Yes everyone the day has finally arrived when Jessica stopped spending money on herself and has spent it all on her home. I never thought I would actually enjoy spending my hard earned money on things other than alcohol, clothes, and food, but here I am all grown up and surprising myself. I mean, let's not kid ourselves here, I've still spent plenty of money on myself but I'm just being more generous to my home now. :-) My favorite thing I've put up so far is this little picture of my dad from 1990. I think he just looks so cute in it. 

What a cute lil captain!

It's nowhere near ready for real pictures to be posted. Those will have to wait until after Mom comes to help decorate but it's definitely getting cuter day by day. I love our little house. Or as Tim so preciously drew:

Our Happy Home :-)

I seriously love that kid like nobody knows. He's warms my heart and sometimes I just want to punch him square in the face.... that's love! ;-)

2. Lily is slowly, keyword: SLOWLY, improving on her training. We go for walks more frequently now so she's getting better on a leash but she still stops sometimes and I end up kicking her or tripping which really pisses me off. Today we worked on laying down. It was a slow process but she finally got it a couple of times... hey! practice makes perfect. 

3. Still have no friends. I'm hoping that by joining the dance studio I'll meet someone there. Ugh my social life is so depressing. I couldn't even tell you the last time I got all done up for a night on the town. SOMEONE COME VISIT ME AND LET'S GO PARTYYYYYYYYY. My alcohol tolerance is slowly but surely going down and I need to be in tip top shape for the Perry/ Bailey wedding in October. 

Well, that's all I got for now folks. Make it a great week!

xoxo

Fill in the Blank Friday!

Linking up again this Friday with Lauren for Fill in the Blank Friday!!!!!

1.   My most favorite birthday was       my 21st. Just me and mom in Vegas. It was awesome considering we had been planning it since I was 16   .

2.  My worst birthday was    my 17th. I had just gotten in HUGE trouble for throwing myself a birthday party a couple of weeks before while my parents were out of town. I was grounded and didn't get a single thing. I was pissed.  .

3.  My favorite birthday memory is     the year (i was maybe 6 or 7) my mom threw me a carnival theme party for me and my friends. My  birthday is around halloween so everyone wore their costumes. (I was a kitty, go figure... rawr) It was awesome! We had hay bails, bobbin for apples, a bounce house, face painting, EVERYTHING carnival related. She went all out and it was so much fun . 

4.  The best birthday present I've ever received was   my first car. 2002 Black Chevy Z71 tahoe. 4" lift with 18" chrome rims, in-dash pop out dvd player, subs. My goodness she was a beauty. I loved her and still do. It was my dream car

5.  The  best birthday present I've ever given was      I wasnt the only one giving it, but my mom and I planned a surprise 70'th birthday for my grandma last year. We even had my aunt, uncle and cousin sneak in from Georgia for her. She cried, I cried, it was so fun  .

6.  Birthdays are       the only day you can bitch and get away with it :-)  .

7.  My favorite age so far has been       23. I graduated college, got a job, got a raise/promotion before 6 months, met the man of my dreams, got the cutest puppy ever, AND escaped the heat of Texas. Yeah I mean, I guess 23 has been pretty cool   

Dinner and movie time now with Tim-a-licious... Yeah Tim, I hope you read this and shake your head cuz THAT JUST HAPPENED!

Happy Weekend Y'all!!!

xoxo

Letting it all out...

I'm not sharing this post via facebook/twitter because it is personal and I'm treating it more like a journal entry... so here goes nothing.... At least I know if you're reading this it's cuz you're a true follower ;-)

The last couple of weeks have been really hard on me. I've cried myself to sleep (more than once), gotten in a fight fight(s) with Tim, been disappointed countless number of times, and just been miserable all together. What the hell is wrong with me right? I'm normally sarcastic, cracking jokes, and the life of the party.... Well folks, when there is no party it's hard to be the life. I still have yet to meet anyone in this weird-ass city. No friends=No party.

Then, the main that's been bothering me is my brother. If you know Grady you know how immature, rude, crude, selfish, and stupid my brother is. This being said, since my parents divorced he has decided he is no longer going to talk to my mom because "When she walked out on my dad, she walked out on him too". THIS STATEMENT INFURIATES ME!!!!!!!!!!! First of all, it's a dumb reason to begin with. Second of all it couldn't be further from the truth. My mom has made numerous attempts to get Grady to go visit her or meet her for dinner. He never responds. He used to only call her if he needed alcohol or money and now he doesn't even do that anymore. But she still texts him EVERY THURSDAY saying "Hope your week is going good, I love you". He never responds. His behavior is absolutely childish and makes me so upset. My mom is crushed by him doing all of this. It's not fair to her. He wants to be pissed at her for divorcing my dad... that's just bullshit. My dad did a lot, and I mean A LOT, of horrible things over the past 20+ years and my mom was a friggin SAINT and stayed with him through it. While my dad was crushing my moms heart and hurting the family, my mom was putting on a strong face for Grady and I and did EVERYTHING for us. Birthday parties, field trips, vacations, christmas presents, dinner cooked every night, spoiled us rotten- my mom did it all! My dad could have cared less about any of that stuff when we were growing up... and now all of a sudden Grady wants to turn his back on my mom and completely cut her out of his life and is gonna live with my dad???? WHAAAAAAAAAAATTTT? Don't get me wrong I love my dad. He is one of the strongest people I know. He has overcome something that most people don't and I respect the shit out of him for that, but Grady isn't looking at the big picture he. And, it's not like you can have a normal, mature, conversation with Grady either. If you try to talk to him he just brushes you off  "WHATEVER JESSICA" "okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk" that's all you get out of Grady. It's starting to make me more upset than it is my mom. What if something happened tomorrow and this was how their relationship ended? It seriously is making me cry right now thinking about it. The 4 of us, yeah we're probably one of the strangest families out there, but we are were so close and it just makes me so upset to think how now that my family is broken as it is, it just became even more broken because my brother is an idiot. I'm crossing my fingers he comes to his senses sooner than later and it can go back to the way it used to be... kinda. 

Moral of the story: I dont know what to do about my brother, I need a girlfriend here, and I miss my mom terribly and just wanna give her a huge hug right now and kick my brother in the balls. The end. Ugh, I still don't feel better and now just cried off mascara. FML

xoxo

What I'm Lovin' Wednesday

Happy Hump Day Errbody!! I'm linking up with Jamie at This Kind Of Love for today's episode of:

I'm loving that my mom is coming to visit in 3 weeks, 1 day, 1 hour and 7 minutes.... but who's counting really

I miss her!!!!!

I'm Loving the new dance studio I joined today! I didn't realize how much I missed dance until I went tonight. SO MUCH FUN! woop! It's for people 16 and up too.. BONUS! check it out here! I'm hopin I can find a friend/drinkin buddy at one of my classes :-)

I'm Loving that my little Lily girl is growing so fast!!! I want her to be big! She's so stinkin cute but I'm ready for her to be a real dog. 

Finally, I'M LOVING and missing all my friends and family back home and in Arkansas. I think everyone should escape the heat and come visit me in Oregon where it's niiiiiiiiiice and cool!

Well that's all I got for now! What are you guys loving? Hope everyone has a great rest of the week!

xoxo

Fill in the blank Friday AND an award????!!!!

HAPPY FRIDAY!!

I'm so honored Sarah passed on a blog award to me!!! WOOP! She is one of my sorority sisters and maybe is one of the funniest people I know. Definitely go check out her blog Peace, Love, & Sweet Tea!!!

So with this award I have to tell you 7 things about myself!!!!!

1. I care more about making other people happy than I do myself. Typically this ends up taking a huge toll on me emotionally but what can i say? I'm a pleaser :-)
2. I HATE HATE HATE being alone. It is rare than I am ever home alone. I will find anything to do before I have to sit at home alone.
3. I will probably end up being "that crazy dog lady" at some point in my life. I love pups. I want them all.
4. Yes it's true, I was at one point in my life OBSESSED with the Jonas Brothers. It's true I saw them 5 times in a 6 month period and temporarily stalked them. Guilty. But hey I've moved on from that stage of my life.
5. I couldn't go a whole day without my cell phone. It's to the point now where I check it without even realizing what I'm doing. It could be dead and I would still try to turn it on to see if I got a text or something. Sad.
6. I want to be successful in life more than anything. Not necessarily factored by money, but successful meaning happy, healthy, a family, a good home, etc. That kind of success :-)
7. I think my family should have it's own reality series. We are so F'ed up it's not even funny. Actually, it would probably be pretty funny to a TV audience.

Well that was fun!!

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NOW it's time to link up with http://thelittlethingswedo.blogspot.com/2011/08/fill-in-blank-friday.html for:

1.   My go to outfit for a dress-up occasion like a wedding is a dress duh?

2.  This week has been exhausting. I'm ready for a good weekend with my man.  

3.  When it's dinnertime and I'm feeling lazy I'll usually eat peanut butter. Just a spoonfull is so filling!

4.  My favorite pair of shoes are my slut slippers from Nine West that my mom got me before Vegas last year. They're so comfy but so sexy!!!

5.  A random item that I own that is completely unnecessary, but that I could never part with is my shake weight. Ha my brother bought it for me for my birthday last year as a joke. Well kind of, not really a joke, because he always makes fun of my arms and i mean ALWAYS. ha but i would never get rid of it!
6.  My favorite person is my grandma. Bobbie is a saint y'all. She spoils the shit out of me. She always is sending me little goodies and newspaper clippings of things. She gives the best advice and is a great listener. I love her so much. I need her to live forever!!!

7.  If I were going to write my own blank it would say What is your most embarrasing moment? I love hearing those stories from people. :-)

Ok y'all I'm out for the weekend!!! :-)

xoxo

Stupid.Sucky.Sunday.

Y'all. I'm dyin today. I haven't been this hungover since my college days. Granted that was only 8 months ago... but still. WHEN DID I GET SO OLD? I just can't hang like I used to. Yes I may have taken 3 whiskey shots last night along with a couple mixed drinks. But, I have consumed wayyyyyyyy more alcohol in a night before and been JUUUUUUST fine. Damn I miss college. Moral of the story: my body hates me today, i can't keep anything down, there isn't enough Gatorade in the world, and i look like ass. 

Moving right along. We finally got all of our things moved in and unpacked (sorta). There is a still a lot that needs to be done. The 3rd bedroom (man cave/office) is full of just crap. Pretty much everything we don't want to deal with has just been thrown in that poor room. I refuse to post pictures until it comes together a little bit more. But it's finally all starting to come together! I just need my momma to get her hiney up here and help me finish decorating :-) 

Alright y'all I'm starting to get that nauseous feeling again so I'm out! Have a great week!!!!

xoxo

I need a drinking buddy

Well guys, hate to say it but I'm just sittin here drinkin... alone. I need a drinkin buddy dammit. Nothing says loser like drinkin alone! Time to entertain myself with a little FILL IN THE BLANK FRIDAY!!!! I'm linkin up with Lauren to play along!

1.   One of my happiest moments ever was       the day I got lap-band surgery. It has had the most impact on my life today. Without that surgery I know I would be still be obese, unhappy, and unhealthy. I can't thank my parents enough for letting me get that operation done. It'll be 6 years next month!

There isn't anything cute about that big girl on the left side!!!

2.  Summer is wedding season and weddings are    a tear jerker. I cry at all of them I've been to. Oh my goodness I love them though! It's a girls dream really. 

3.  This summer     summer? what's summer? It's not even 80* here. I'm dying for some heat and a pool layout at. Girlfriend has lost her tan lines and I ain't happy bout it!

4.  My summer food of choice has been   cheese. My food of choice is always cheese. and ohhhh my how I miss me some chips and queso. I need Tex Mex back in my life!

5.  My summer uniform has been     dress pants, blouse, sweater=work clothes. gross! sick! 

6.  If I could spend the entire summer in one location I would choose      anywhere with my family and closest friends. Preferably somewhere warm, sunny, and with flowing alcohol. Can you tell I wanna go on a vacation?

7.  My summer anthem is  Dirt Road Anthem- Jason Aldean DUHHHH

HAPPY FRIDAY FRIENDS!!!